Protected

What's up with the strong deep longings within me?
Living my whole life with them I have followed them down the dark mine shaft and at the end found it all centered on love, not enough love, never enough love, never satisfied.
I saw that my desire to fufill my longings was the very reason I would sin.
I was trying to satisfy my longing of love in a way not in fellowship with my Heavenly Father.
I heard recently that my deep longings,create a perfect base for my temptations to cultivate and these longings are so strong because I have not lived in GOD's Love.
That if at that moment I invited Christ into the situation and fellowshipped in his love it would overpower the temptation.
This makes sense I don't cheat on my wife because I would never want to hurt her because I prize her love so much.
So on my journey I am often asking GOD :
[what don't I know about your love right here , right now in this very moment that if I did my heart would be different?]

The theme of love is always receiving, if we don't spend time receiving, we will run to our own resources called sin to satisfy.
Even giving love is a response of what we have and are receiving .
Lord teach me to be the catcher and not the pitcher so when you ask me to pitch I will have your pitch to throw.

Now that I blurgagated the mechanics of my thoughts, Let me tell you of He who is within me.
For as long as I can remember I have enhanced my relationship with GOD by pouring into my head religious books and principles and sadly trusted in my collection of principles and knowledge and called that my relationship with GOD.
But what a cheap Pharisaical way of living with Christ.
Now I have him , he who is, and the best word I have to describe it is"PROTECTED".
I feel my spirit living daily in his protecting love, and his love is the fulfillment of my deep longings I could never fill.
Oh it's a journey, I have years of habits trusting myself and trying to satisfy my own desires, but I wouldn't trade this present joy of him for anything.
Remember that old hymn "In my heart there rings a melody of heavens harmony?"
If Jesus is heavens harmony it is accompanying me.
Lately on TV AnneBeth has enjoyed watching a TV show where people who were put up for adoption are reunited with their birth family. Almost always their search is motivated by a longing to fill a void an empty hole in their heart. And when the reunion is accomplished there is peace and joy and tons of love.
Peace and joy and tons of love that's the way I would describe God's protected love for me, in me.

"What part of your love don't I understand, that if I did my heart would be different right now?"