Himself

Listening to her play the piano, GOD's spirit touches me.
Gently laying in the music of himself, his care and tenderness tends perfectly to my soul.
Himself the colors, the sounds.
Himself who tucks me into folds of love, sounds of his spirit in twines and covers me, where words alone could never paint.
I receive, heal and know and am known.
Himself who is ever loving me first that I might love in return.
His special flowing moving healing love of himself
I look and see the little girl of his delight whom he uses to minister himself to me.
He shares with me her spirit of delight to play for the king. Sparkling eyes, beautiful heart, he loves her like crazy.
My heart so full I want to tell her over and over of the Father gift she gives me each time she plays.
It is the gift of grace, the gift of himself that could never be repaid.
My solace and joy is that I know the same Himself is her Himself and he can do and is, far more in a zillion far more ways.
So Father give her a hug from me and thank her, bless her with great heaps of yourself as I know you do.
ted

It was love not an accusing finger

It was love not an accusing finger
I know the evil of my sin

It was love not an accusing finger
A love that had to be more desirous than sin
that would lead my affections away from myself.

It was love not an accusing finger
Love so consistent so continual
it would fill the empty voids of my soul.
It would be there to feed me,
to touch and breath in all day long.

A love I would learn to trust and live in.

His love heals, lives and gives life!
Accusing finger tears down, shames, condemns.

"There is now, no more condemnation
for those who are in Christ"

Wind of the Living Spirit

Wind hovering over the water
The invisible moving the visible
Lord I step into your breathing
Feeling the movement of yourself
I am invited to be loved.

You are the living, moving Spirit in me.
Your offering hand to live in your unraveling healing
is what I need so badly.

The Living Moving Spirit, is you Father.
It's you, that loves this raggedy, grungy kid,
so unlovely, you see me as beloved.

Accepting your invitation I move with you.
Your presence clothes me in dazzling colors.
Your extravagant love holds the gaze of my heart
as I am loved and loved and loved.

Oh Wind of the Living Spirit let's live together, forever.

The Continual Touch

There is the difference that makes today significant and that is to love, to join in with our heavenly Father's continual touch in us and touch someone else with love.
The beautiful thing of love is you don't even have to be present to love. It reaches its mark through your prayers via He who is love.
We have known since our youth that love never dies, is that why my love for my Dad that passed away a number of years ago is still a fresh joy to love?
A continual touch invitation to love others was given first to me by love so amazing so divine demands my soul, my life, my all.

Marvel

Marvel is the word that continually laps at the beach of my heart.
Marvel at how the Father arranges and redirects the best for us.
Marvel how he holds our attention to tiny everyday wonders of life.
Marvel at how a word like dear and precious changes into deeper meanings of love.
Marvel at the sweetness of a shared moment.
Marvel how noise and busyness of life takes back seat to the more significant quiet deep peace of Himself.
Marvel how old eyes can see so young, captivated of a never ending parade of his wonders.
Marvel in the security of being so known , not needing to be sumpin but getting to be just his kid, contented.
Marvel at the enjoyment of everyday tasks is His design to enjoy today.
Marvel at the gift of marveling.

CO-TOUCH

Co-touch
Led into loves of Himself through my dear wife we co-touch the beautiful delights of her design.
What she joys in, with Father like sparkle, tickles and spins the youth of our love.
Inhaling the wonder I behold and hold my wonder, my beloved.
Love beyond ourselves the air we share, His gift, Himself, ourselves, the deepest dearest giver of love and life.

Mr.Salvation

Good morning Larry
God's love is stronger than our worries and fears. There have been times when serious health issues have come upon me. They came with such a force it knocked the wind right out of me and landed me on my back.
My heart and mind was frantic.
The uncertainty of how my future would forever be altered flooded my mind with crazy desperate flying emotions.
Somewhere in the middle of all this I met Mr. Salvation.
GOD is ever revealing himself to us, It was at this time he revealed to me that the person of GOD is salvation.
A salvation on a zillion different fronts all at the same time. A salvation that could calm the crazies that I was now holding.
Salvation, that word is so dear to me now, For it is Him.
GOD gives us life from his life.
We get to live through him.
In the book of Jude it says you Larry are called by GOD.
Can you hear him say your name ?
Larry I have called you, for this time, in the situation you are in. I have called you to rest in me. I, who love you so deeply and dearly am salvation.
Open your arms wide I will show you what a mercy filled with love can do for my Larry, a child I created, that I love , that I had in my mind before I created the first star.
You are safe in me.
Come live in salvation.



Living in the deep end of his love with you
ted

Letting Him lead

Goot Morning Comrade larry

What sustains us in our daily walk?
Waking up in the morning takes as much time as my computer slowly coming to life.
If you're anything like me I do not engage very well mentally for at least an hour and a cup of coffee has been guzzled.
Doesn't there also seem to be a time lapse spiritually connecting to the father first thing in the morning? Maybe not for you morning people but for us night folk when GOD is up mornings are best performed as slow as possible for maximum results.
And if there are anxious worries in our life or just the todo list running through our head, it can take all our attention easily.
Reading in Luke this morning I came across this concept stuck in the words of Jesus telling his disciples how he felt about being famous.
Just substitute successful for famous that's the word we use in our culture.
Luke 9:46-48 You become great by accepting me as the one who you follow today. Not by asserting your own wisdom. It is your spirit in harmony, in step with him.

Today I look with you at what GOD could be directing. If it is it will connect and be confirmed along the way, if not it will slip into lala land and maybe it was meant for me instead.
I don't know what is going on with your business in regards to needing a salesperson but if yours is like mine . GOD hasn't brought anyone into my life for that job, and believe you me I have had an eye out for him to do so.

So I will share with you what he has unfolded for me so far.

Number 1 and most important is what we have already talked about in the fine art of letting him lead. And how that is closely connected to how we are loved and living that love today.

Number 2 comes from "Lord I don't want to be a salesman they seem naggy, snaggy , pushy and self centered."
But Lord I know my business all comes down to me selling."
There wasn't a whole lot of righteous warm fuzzies in it. until he reminded me about your Dad.
I was not able to attend your Father's funeral but AnneBeth reported to me of the large number that attended.
And I remember well the notes and phone calls your mom received of people calling to share their sympathy.
I am in no way bringing this up thinking you have to take your father's place , Nor should you carry that around in your head.
The reason why I bring this up is what I have learned from the father by looking at your Dad's life.
If this applies to you great if it doesn't just let it slide on by.
Your Dad was well liked and significant to other people not because his stove hearths were so wonderful.
Your Dad was so liked because he genuinely cared for people he would encourage them with love or a good joke.
Folk could see the good in him and it made their day special when he showed up.
They were more than a"prospect" they were his friends and he cared about their lives.
What is stronger than our perceptions of salesmen or our fears that we are going to be rejected time after time?
It's Love
Can you see the connection to us being constantly loved by GOD and letting him change us to love others?
If we get to go out and love people, encourage them with the Fathers Love, is there no higher calling.
If rejection comes and it will, if we were able to love with the father right there, with that person it would'nt matter if they bought a single loaf of bread or cup of coffee.
GOD accomplished what he wanted done and we got to be a part of it.
GOD has given you wonderful qualities that encourage people, your bright eyes and cheerful countenance is a blessing from GOD to others,
You don't need to say anything GODly He shines out of you. You know words are cheap but genuine love is powerful.
There is a whole world out there that would love to be loved by the Father through you.

I reckon the job title is being the Father's love distributor to the Portland area.

There is a kick that comes from co-loving with GOD he will nudge you to listen a little longer to what the person really is concerned about and your there .
GOD will show you ways you can increase the persons business and it may not have any financial benefit to you. But it wont matter because you are being faithful to what the Father wants done today.
That you have a ministry at the bakery loving folks there, I don't doubt it in the least, With your uncle working there does this allow you to follow Christ into the city disguised as a salesman?
Your Dad was a great salesman because he loved the people not the stove hearths, it was the people that invigorated him not the hearths, his life touched a life with God's love.
IT is God's love working in us. As we are loved more and more, fears of rejection disappear because we were able to give love and needed not the client's business.
Can you see how GOD works "fear not," follow me, or seek ye first the Kingdom of GOD into living loved in him.
Your prospects your clients become opportunities to be loved and to love, what a satisfying life.

Number 3 Being a salesman isn't about trying to convince, coerce or manipulate someone into buying what you have.
It is caring for them with his love and if they want your product it's right there, the topic will come up, people are out there needing bakery goods you're not twisting there arms .
GOD knows how to take care of his own bakery since he is the CEO of Hometown Cafe & Bakery I imagine he can do a pretty good job.
How do you begin? You look at what he has put into you heart and head already.
I know GOD, he is planting little steps in us all the time and he is really good at just waiting until we circle back around and do the last little thing he nudged us to do.
Take the little nudge step and do it. He really gets off on the little wacky nudge steps.
Tiny things are huge to Him.
Remember he is the expert who uses the small to baffle the mighty.
Do you have a passion for a certain direction or people , take the next step, it is crazy to think that GOD isn't in our passions and interests.
GOD who do you want me to touch today with your love is a great step just don't be surprised when he says go home and take your wife for a drive or go home and take a nap.
He is GOD that cares for his children and he delights when you do the bazaar just because he wanted you to.
It is faith in him leading that he delights in. So go delight GOD!
your co-looker of GOD

Colored perfectly for this day

Good Morning Comrade Larry

You are so known by our father.
It is here as we live with him where things happen.
It is so endearing to think about and feel his love. It is enjoying his continual invitation to have more of him that makes this day significant.
Last night it rained hard and blew, this morning it is grey and the world outside looks and feels like it is recovering from the thrashing of last night.
Amidst the feeling of recovering is my GOD, he matches so perfectly the condition of life as it is.
His love is perfect. Perfect in the sense He comes alongside where we are, how we feel and he co-exists with his supporting love telling us we are his own, known and cherished in the color and mood of how we are feeling right now.
His love never bullies us it is there to heal and just hang out with.
Last year when I would sit day in and day out in pain, I did nothing in him I didn't have to think thoughts of admiration of him or conger up words I was in the center of his will being sick in pain doing nothing and in the pain his color of love matched how I felt and comforted me that I could just be the me I was at that moment in time.
You and I have heard since we were very small that he is the GOD of comfort. But I never realized all the many ways he shows it.
There has been times when I was fed up with the pressures of adults and he would bring a child to me that was excited to give me a hug.
I remember wanting to just run away and get away from everything but I couldn't and he touched me with a song the pianist played at church.
I would be running my head so fast trying to keep up with the demands that had to be met now and in the middle of it he showed me the colors of a fruit tree in bloom.
Weird timing yet told me that I all I was doing wasn't keeping the universe held together. There was still love and beauty taking place, there are still, still waters and baby lambs being born and younger sisters in love and old faithful dogs that love you no matter what is going on.
Our Father is the loving precious author of showing us how we can escape from ourselves and be his son.
Love you,
This day is significant because we are so loved by the same father.
Lord show us both how to live inside who you are so loved in love that is colored perfectly for this day.
co-looker of the Father
tedeetoe

Power of love over lies

Good Morning Larry
I never share anything new I only look with you what GOD has already placed deep in our hearts of himself. So I am your co-looker of GOD.

You have heard be anxious of nothing and make your request be known to GOD...
Easy to say and you know there is truth in it but walking it out is a different story.
It's kind of like don't think about pink elephants. (good luck)
In the pressure of life and especially in business it seems like everything screams do this, and this and this. The pressure of everything can seem so frantic if you don't do it all now the world will blow apart.
In fact if you get 4 of these fr antics in a row it will wind you up in knot which will feel like a punch in the gut.
I want share with you 2 lies that satan loves to use.
Lie number 1 if you just work harder faster and longer you will succeed.
This is so easy to buy into because it is in your power to achieve it.
You can work harder, faster, and longer but the outcome satan knows is this is a dandy way to not only destroy you(burn out) but also your family because they carry your burden as well. And it preoccupies you from having a close relationship with Christ.
So how does this be anxious about nothing happen?
It comes by relationship,,,, not doing more but actually doing less. You stop doing so GOD can.
Think about when you were a kid all you had to do was what Dad told you to do.
It was a father to son relationship. Jesus did the same when he said "I only do what I see my Father doing..."
The world and everyone seems to be shouting you're the father do something!
That's the lie you are not the father you are the son.
To be a son that isn't anxious you need to relax into the father being able to calm the anxious seas that is driving you nuts.
This isn't a mindset that you walk around with, This is receiving real time love and affection from GOD to you.
A tangible real relationship where you look at him just as you would if your earthly Dad was standing right there. Just like your earthly Dad you can see GOD saying look at me Larry am I all frantic about the mess you're in?
NO I have thousands of years experience of loving my kids through messes and I love you so much I promise I will be with you every second and anytime you doubt that just look at me and I will reassure that I love you and I promise never to leave you by yourself.
MY love is a secure protective love that what you care about I care far more. All you have to do is look at me to see the truth.
When your little boy comes running to you scared do you not pick him up and love him to reassure him.
Well I am right here let me pick you I am the author of loving.
It is by you seeing I love you just as it would be by your love to your son that casts his fear and you have peace.
Live being constantly loved by me by turning and receiving.

Lie # 2 satan loves to say who you are is based on the bad decisions you've made. Look everyone is watching to see if you will fall flat on your face. They all trusted you and boy you are sure letting them down. What a joke you are thinking you could pull this off. You are the looser . Shame on you for getting everybody into this mess.
You see the accuser is very skilled at being a creep he's been practicing for thousands of years. He loves to throw on you it's all your fault and it is all up to you. For when you buy into it he knows it will take you down and keep you from your relationship with Christ.

Larry a real man of faith and love doesn't depend on himself, his life points that he is depending on GOD. And his life is an invitation for others to join him in being loved by GOD and letting GOD lead and feed him.
Confidence is shown to others by your ability to be loved, that you walk secure with his gentleness as a son not a father.
The load you carry is that you know what GOD desires of you today and you live in his love doing it.
If there is a decision that needs to be made you wait for GOD's confirming peace. If time demands an answer now you know that GOD can use your choice even if it turns out to be a bad decision.
You know and live in the GOD that has never said "Larry I want you to worry about this today."
You know and live in this wonderful GOD that says "I am sufficient to handle whatever this day has let's go do it together."
You know when fears and pressures come to look to your father and see if he is worried,to see if He is still concerned about what your facing and be reassured that he is right there for you.

The big difference between GOD and satan . GOD will give a direction the next step he is constructive not destructive. satan will let you sit and stir, keep you up worrying and let you rot in anxiousness.

Bottom line :
The very best thing you can do is as you go through the day keep asking, Lord show me I'm loved by you. Show me how to live being loved this day with you.

Your co-looker of GOD
and fellow brother loved of GOD
ted

An Abraham Letter to a friend

Hello my brother Abraham
Yeah I know you are larry but as I read Romans I see you as Abraham.
Look at Romans chapter 4 start around verse 12 . Abraham was claimed faithful by what he watched GOD doing . He was willing to live in faith of what GOD was doing for him and trust that perfect father to take care of him.
It says that he lived this way long before the promise came true. The promise of GOD required nothing for Abraham to do.
It was GOD saying I will put everything together for you. Your job, is that you get the joy of sitting on an old apple crate and watch me do it. Now I will show you things to do when I want you to, but your job is to stay on that crate and watch me do what I do best. And that is loving you with all my heart so stay on the box and have fun seeing that it is I who am alive and living this day in real time with you.
And right there in Romans it says that Abraham entered into this relationship with his heavenly Papa and believed and trusted and rested and let his Papa be his papa.
It is also clear that it wasn’t because Abraham was such a good man it was because GOD wanted to do it for Abraham. Like a good Papa he loves to give good gifts to his children.
Abraham was to simply embrace what GOD does. The fulfillment of the promise depended entirely of Abraham keeping himself away from what GOD was doing and only responding to GOD when he was asked.
The greatest freedom of being a Christian is the freedom we get from being free from ourselves.
GOD loves to pick nobody’s like Abraham is what I see this verse 17-18. You and I are nobodies in and of ourselves.
GOD stepped in when the situation was hopeless this dude was 100 years old, cranking out a kid was pretty much a bet only a fruitcake would take on. But between the lines of this story when I ask GOD show more what is going on he says it’s not rocket science Ted, we enjoyed each other he knew I loved him not just with head but with his heart we lived together we talked to together. He looked at me when he loved me, he could see in my face that I not only wanted what was best for him he also could tell that I was capable of handling anything present and future and not even break a sweat. Abraham decided to live with me not base on what he could do but on what I promised I would do for him. His reassurance was only a glance away, I was always there. When he lived looking at me all those years waiting he changed, instead of discouragement it got the point of when it happens it will happen it will be great when that day comes but I am enjoying this day with papa and that’s a mighty fine thing!
Larry look at the last part of chapter 4 it’s not just for Abraham it’s for us as well.
You want a new spin on GOD’s heart? Every time you see the word Faith change it to relationship with GOD and it will show you his heart. The sacrifice Jesus gave us on the cross allowed us to have this type of wonderful relationship with our heavenly father.
You are so known and loved, he is not worried about your how big your difficulties are in fact it excites him that you are looking to him to save you. He really gets off on being the redeemer of hopeless frantic yeahoos like you and I.
Our Papa is saying come see as you live in me the still waters of who I am.
As you look at me how much I love you, see also that I really do have enough marbles in my head and a pretty handy magic wand to handle your life's situation.
Larry I love you ,I want you to not only enjoy me but also this day, go and have fun loving on others, open your heart wide, you may not have money to huck around but you do have all the love and caring and kindness and laughter and silliness that I have stuck in you.
I will show you how to be a little carefree kid in a busy life. I will show you how to see life with me.
I giveyou permission to place all the responsibilities on me to figure out solutions.
I give you back just being Larry, not caretaker of the universe.
We will walk out this day together and it amidst the busyness I will show you that the birds still chirp when I swing spring back around again.
I am saying is that I love you with a love that is not only personal but able to do far more than you could think or do by yourself. Hmmmm I have heard that somewhere before.
I sure love you. Abraham’s Papa is Larry’s Papa too!

I Look to Live In Eyes that Desire

I look to live in His eyes that desire
Eyes that deem that I'm worth desiring
Eyes that fill my endless longings allowing searching to retire

I look to live in His eyes that desire
bright excited that I am here
to come and play, come and stay
eyes that affirm that I matter

I look to live in His eyes that desire
when mind need not engage
to enjoy the company of his spirit within
all the pleasures of His wind.

Oh tweedle dee and tweedle da and a healthy He He He
LIVING IN HIS EYES OF LOVE!

I look to live in His eyes of desire

I

Protected

What's up with the strong deep longings within me?
Living my whole life with them I have followed them down the dark mine shaft and at the end found it all centered on love, not enough love, never enough love, never satisfied.
I saw that my desire to fufill my longings was the very reason I would sin.
I was trying to satisfy my longing of love in a way not in fellowship with my Heavenly Father.
I heard recently that my deep longings,create a perfect base for my temptations to cultivate and these longings are so strong because I have not lived in GOD's Love.
That if at that moment I invited Christ into the situation and fellowshipped in his love it would overpower the temptation.
This makes sense I don't cheat on my wife because I would never want to hurt her because I prize her love so much.
So on my journey I am often asking GOD :
[what don't I know about your love right here , right now in this very moment that if I did my heart would be different?]

The theme of love is always receiving, if we don't spend time receiving, we will run to our own resources called sin to satisfy.
Even giving love is a response of what we have and are receiving .
Lord teach me to be the catcher and not the pitcher so when you ask me to pitch I will have your pitch to throw.

Now that I blurgagated the mechanics of my thoughts, Let me tell you of He who is within me.
For as long as I can remember I have enhanced my relationship with GOD by pouring into my head religious books and principles and sadly trusted in my collection of principles and knowledge and called that my relationship with GOD.
But what a cheap Pharisaical way of living with Christ.
Now I have him , he who is, and the best word I have to describe it is"PROTECTED".
I feel my spirit living daily in his protecting love, and his love is the fulfillment of my deep longings I could never fill.
Oh it's a journey, I have years of habits trusting myself and trying to satisfy my own desires, but I wouldn't trade this present joy of him for anything.
Remember that old hymn "In my heart there rings a melody of heavens harmony?"
If Jesus is heavens harmony it is accompanying me.
Lately on TV AnneBeth has enjoyed watching a TV show where people who were put up for adoption are reunited with their birth family. Almost always their search is motivated by a longing to fill a void an empty hole in their heart. And when the reunion is accomplished there is peace and joy and tons of love.
Peace and joy and tons of love that's the way I would describe God's protected love for me, in me.

"What part of your love don't I understand, that if I did my heart would be different right now?"